You guys here can all call me a man-child, a baby, or whatever -- but truthfully as I was writing the above response I feel I wrote it while I was psychologically and emotionally stressed and unstable, not knowing how to put the words together to express my emotions of how much grief, pain, sadness, and sorrow from this entire situation here. I think that I might of even shed a tear or two whilst I was writing, and honestly this is just one of those "I have to pour out all my emotions right now otherwise I'm going to have suicidal thoughts" moments.